Hello, I think it's been a while since my last journal and I have decided to write another one just so people know that I am not dead. I am still looking for work, but I still have my job with my dad and I am all set for a while. I was going to buy more points, but I don't have enough money at the moment and I need to wait until my pay check tomorrow, so I can see how much money I will have in my account. If I stay until 5 tonight and tomorrow I should make a little bit more then what I usually do, but my dad isn't going to believe me unless I write him a note on his desk. I should do that while I remember the time I got hear to work and when I leave. It also depends on when my other co worker is leaving, he has the key to the building and I don't so I can't lock up the place. >_>;
   I have been doing a lot of head shots when it comes to realism and I am going to find a scanner of some sort, I think I will ask the library how much it would be to scan some pages, but I need to pay off my fine first before I can use their other stuff. 25$ Isn't as bad as I thought it was, it's been so long I thought they would make the prices higher then that I think they would have let me know if that was the case though? I think they would have for sure. XD I stayed over my parents house this weekend to fill out applications and now I remembered why I left the house to begin with. Their rude and fight all the time and treat me as their maid, sure I am their kid, but I am also a guest I am not their freaking slave. If I was still living their it'd be one thing, I wouldn't have minded that much because I would have gotten payed for cleaning the house. Since I don't live their any more they wouldn't pay me for it and it's not my fault that they are lazy slobs. That's exactly what my parents are and I don't feel bad for saying it either.
     I have been getting into told tv shows recently, I don't know why that is maybe I just miss them so much, and they have been re made so many times that's it nice just to sit back with a cup of coffee and remember the fun times I used to have watching them. Yeah, the older cartoons were very cheesy and had dumb life lessons that parents were to lazy to teach their damn kids, but I still enjoyed them more then I did the back street boys when I was younger. Well, a lot younger then 21 that's for sure I am not that old yet, Lol. I was watching sailor moon the other day I got this idea for a fan comic that I am writing the script for. The my little pony fanfiction I was working on is giving me a shit tone of problems and I need to focus my energy on something new. I have re written my fanfiction at least 20 times or so as of right now. I just think, regardless of weather it's for a series or an actual novel that time and thought still should be put into it.
      My room mate was looking through my sketch books the other day and she said that my anatomy was good enough to start taking commissions, so we have been thinking of prices that people can afford, but the thing is if I don't think my anatomy is good enough just yet then neither will the people who commission me. I still have a lot of things to work on that I just don't feel strong enough in my capabilities to do the work that someone will pay me for. You all know that my digital coloring is absolute crap and my copic drawings aren't the best either, very amateur at best if you were to look through my sketches. I need to figure out this whole character design business and why it's giving me so much trouble. I used to love designing outfits , but as I got older I relised just how bad and generic they look. I think that no matter how many books you read on that stuff that it's up to you to figure it out on you're own.
      On a better note though I got in contact with an old friend from the high school that I went to and we've been texting a lot lately. Some days I don't text though because I don't want her to think I am obsessed with talking to her. I can talk for hours through text and email and not think about how someone else might feel about me spamming their in boxes with a bunch of crap that they probably don't even read all the way through. So, I take a day to talk to her and then I leave her be for a couple of days and start talking to her again, she has work and school to and I don't know what her schedule is like and that's why I don't talk to her every day because I am sure that she is busy and I don't want to bother her. The point is I am friends with her again and I can't wait until we hang out over the course of the summer or maybe when she get's out of school. She told me her self that she only has one more year of college and then she is done. I am going to apply to college today and tell my parents that I did apply, so we can see if I get in or not. My dad always discourages me though, like I never made it to an advanced math class, so I have no idea if I can even do calculus who knows? Calculus might come easier to me then the other stuff I had to learn. I wish he would just tells me these things nicely, if I wanted an opinion similar to doctor phil's then I would go talk to him. I guess he just doesn't want to see me make some mistake or something. :\